This is the ultimate book about Los Angeles because there’s no ultimate book about Los Angeles. There’s no last stop on the L.A. railway whose yellow trolleys went out of service in 1958, there’s no end to Oaxacans, Zapotecs, Mixtecs, Central Americans and Bengalis inventing new lives in Koreatown, no one’s heading to the Ambassador Hotel on Wilshire to disrupt the assassination of Robert F. Kennedy, there’s no end to white hipsters and “creative types” coming to Los Angeles from NYC and points East to make it big, just like there’s no last offramp on the 10 freeway from heading across the desert to Texas and Florida. Which is to say, as the last city of the American civilization before the Pacific Plate subducts under North America and uplifts the ranges of the West, L.A. never stops, it never stops—L.A. never stops. Tropic of Orange dares to go there.

L.A.’s the city at the end of the continent that grinds out industrial daydreams and nightmares for the rest of the planet. “Hollywood will not rot on the windmills of eternity/ Hollywood whose movies stick in the throat of God,” Allen Ginsberg wrote, “Money! Money! Money! shrieking mad celestial money of illusion!” This city industrialized the imagination of the species. This city unspooled reels of Buster Keaton and W. C. Fields, killed Sam Cooke and Janis Joplin, buried Marilyn Monroe and the shadows of ten thousand Indians, Japanese and Vietnamese who dared to attack John Wayne and his cohort of innocents. Driving Route 66 to the edge of the continent, L.A. arrived at the end of the world first. Giant ants, earthquakes, aliens from outer space. The city limits, the Outer Limits. Time and again, even as it was wiped out by Martians in 1953 in War of the Worlds or in 1964 while Charlton Heston drove the empty avenues of downtown in Omega Man looking for vampires to machinegun, the city plowed the civilization’s subconscious and planted alien pod plants.

Roman Polanski’s 1974 noir classic, Chinatown, ostensibly set in 1937, makes no mention, of course, that in 1936 most of Chinatown was razed and buried under the newly built Union Station. Dodger Stadium commemorates in no way the Chicano neighborhood of Chavez Ravine, whose residents were forcibly evicted, whose properties were buried under landfill for baseball parking lots. Entire Japanese American neighborhoods emptied of residents for concentration camps during World War 2: East San Pedro Japanese American residents were given 48 hours to pack and leave—their fishing village then razed, their boats sold or burned. Entire Mexican American neighborhoods were razed and buried under famous freeways. Displacement, dispossession and dislocation continues these days under the guise of gentrification. These are stories that Hollywood can’t seem to imagine, because they’re actually happening. Look in vain for them in Chinatown, Blade Runner, Short Cuts, L.A. Confidential. The ostensibly intergalactic imagination of the movies doesn’t begin to approach hard-bitten realities reflected in the lives of the seven characters central to Tropic of Orange.

Tropic of Orange refracts the city’s passion like skyscrapers against the setting sun. This book holds in solar heat like a piece of granite. Even as the desert east of the San Gabriel mountains refracts the city’s energy like dream lightning in murky dreams of ex-L.A. hipsters gentrified out to Joshua Tree, in sun-bleached dreams of old rock guitarists and rock climbers, as wind scours trinkets of aluminum and plastic across the sand and gravel. Out there across the sand and gravel of his artist’s compound, Noah Purifoy’s human-scale monuments broadcast South Central passion to the cholla, creosote, and the stars. Out there, young black and Latino families from the Marine base shop at the Yucca Valley Walmart. Out there, errant music recorded in L.A. wafts like lost heat waves. Those lyrics, those phrases and rhythms re-emerge inscribed in these sentences, in these chapters. The revolution will not be televised, recalls Tropic of Orange on page 218, even as a romantically entangled Chicano and Japanese American couple, journalists, tragically try to prove it wrong.

If L.A. is that recombinant hybrid of the culture’s imagination and the civilization’s final history, of its weird and frequently terrible desires taken to their ultimate logical ends (freeways and car culture, cults and crazies, a police state hidden behind sunglasses and sun-tans), few novels live to tell actual Los Angeles stories and effectively take anything like its full measure. Tropic of Orange takes that apocalyptic tale on with Surrealist nerve and Futurist verve. Karen Yamashita looks on what the civilization wrought on this place, unafraid—she doesn’t turn away; five years after the 1992 riots (“the largest civil disturbance in modern times… 60 dead, one billion dollars damage…“), columns of smoke still rise from those conflicts of race and class. Seven voices, each distinguished by a distinct voice and POV, tell stories that sojourn the Pacific, traverse the Sonora Desert, cross mean streets and ethnic divides to meet, folding into one another in a wild (and wildly imagined) 7 days in Los Angeles.

In 2011, as visiting professor of creative writing at UC Santa Cruz, I wandered into the lunch counter at a cafe that Karen liked, and found her hosting a party of out of town visitors. She invited me to join them, and as I pulled up a chair, one of the visitors, Robert Allen, was talking about the Port Chicago mutiny, the largest mass mutiny in U.S. naval history, when 50 black sailors were court-martialed in 1944 after 700 men were blown apart (320 died) loading munitions aboard ships heading for the war in the Pacific. “Robert!” I said, jumping up, “you’re the only person I’ve ever heard talking about Port Chicago!” I ran over and gave him a hug. “The last time I saw you was in Nicaragua! How long has it been? Twenty years?” He’d written a book about Port Chicago and edited the Black Scholar journal for decades. I’d only learned about Port Chicago more than twenty years earlier and more than three thousand miles away, in Managua, in 1987, when Robert told me about it as we sat at a table with Alice Walker. I’ve only heard the story of Port Chicago twice in my life, both times by luck, the kind of luck and the kind of stories you get when Karen Yamashita invites you to sit at her table. Tropic of Orange invites you; try your luck—you’re in for seven kinds of L.A. stories that fold into an origami flower of razor-sharp titanium.

Sesshu Foster



NOT SURE EXACTLY WHY i did not figure out how to listen to the voice mail on my cell phone till this evening.

SORRY if you called me and left a message and wondered, what the hell.

there were two dozen messages. some long messages from unknown numbers that consisted of muffled bumps and long stretches of silence. some repeated calls from unknown numbers.

TWO CALLS WERE FROM MY BROTHER WHO DIED last november. in one, he thanked me for my help and wished me well. that was his last message.


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Mom’s retirement party; I read a poem. The Smallhouses drove down from Northern California, even Emmy was there, a hundred teachers, balloons, champagne, and a mariachi group. Where were you on that day? Elliot came all the way from Idaho from the Nez Perce reservation, in town on business. He came, hanging out with us. Where were you?




Our grandparents as newlyweds. Grandpa Otokichi looks a lot like Uncle Bill and Uncle Bob. According to records, born in 1877, attended school till grade 5 in Japan.  Umeko Yamane, born in 1890, attended school till grade 8. Grandpa had been in California since 1899; Grandma had just arrived, 1913. It was arranged. They knew they didn’t know, hope the only little light they could hold forth. You wouldn’t recall anything about them. They never knew you either—though we met Grandma a few times in the facility in Santa Maria when she was ill. The Methodist Church rented them a room off the parking lot when they returned from camp. Grandma worked in the fields in strawberries and other crops and every day after work nursed her husband, laid out, ill from a stroke.


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All those eyes—feel them look out of our eyes. Do you feel it? Were they watching you at rest, sitting on a downed tree on the trail, standing trees of the forest, alone, waiting for the the quiet. Waiting out the roaring that never ceased, even when the frequencies shifted beyond hearing. Smoking, certainly, maybe sucking a tall can in a paper sack, waiting to feel a little peace descending in bird song and tobacco smoke, occasional sounds from town.


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Needless to say, there’s a thousand little snapshots of family gatherings where you never show up—you felt sorry for yourself, especially during the holidays, you felt an exile. “Who are those people? I don’t even know them anymore,” you said to me. After I sent you news about them, many letters, hundreds of postcards, told you how people were doing, what they were up to every time we met, that was the kind of bullshit you’d get back to me with.



It’s true, many of these people I didn’t know any better than you did. So what?  That’s what the city is good for. You live with all these people; sometimes you see them, sometimes you don’t. You don’t know them all. You can’t. You may meet someone new on any given day. “I don’t like to be around people in groups,” you said. “I have social anxiety disorder.” You always had some excuse handy, even if you got it going around to a doctor’s office on the off-chance you might get a prescription.


Our aunt, Mary Agawa, stands above her mother during their one trip to Japan. Mary returned from the trip ill with TB and died (in her mid-20s) shortly afterwards. Grandma lost her two eldest children to tuberculosis when they were young adults. By the time we met, her husband had died long before, and her health was broken.



“Best of Everything— Terry Kubata”—all these pictures with these stairs or palm trees in the background were taken in Boyle Heights mid-1940s, where Aunti Fu and Uncle John met at the Fellowship Hostel on Evergreen Avenue, a block from Evergreen Cemetery. Terry Kubata would have been a resident like Aunti Fu and Uncle John, all these young Nisei released from the camps (I don’t know if Uncle John ever went to camp, because he spent the war isolated in tuberculosis sanatariums, the Barlow Hospital in Elysian Park, or one in the valley). Many of them just out of high school, just starting their lives, released from the camps. The war was over.




The Quakers (American Friends) and other churches took in internees released from the camps. Japanese Americans were given a bus ticket and $25 and told to go. In most cases the families had lost everything, their properties confiscated or sold for pennies on a day’s notice the week they left for internment, or they had their goods stolen from storage facilities like the Bekins warehouse on Fair Oaks Avenue in Pasadena. These young Nisei grew up in a California of racist Asian Exclusion Act laws, anti-miscegenation laws that prohibited people of color from marrying whites, their parents prohibited by law from owning land, racial real estate covenants were the law of land, made targets of violence and hatred and marginalized to “mixed-race” areas like Boyle Heights with its Catholic churches, Buddhist temples and Jewish shuls and centers. And then all of that was too complicated for you? What did it have to do with you?



The hostel is still at the corner of Evergreen and Folsom. It’s almost exactly the same, 70 years later, I’m not sure why. Here’s a snapshot looking toward Folsom. We walked around inside, the three story old-fashioned tenement building with an interior courtyard and the fountain long dry. Tiny, often windowless rooms open to long dim hallways with bathrooms at the end. At the bottom of the stairs in the basement, showers were provided in rough cement stalls with low concrete walls. A couple Mexicano caretakers live inside it nowadays, at least one of them with woman and kids. One was washing with a garden hose an old upholstered lounge chair in the parking lot at the rear of the building. Their music and TV can sometimes be heard coming out of the windows; maybe it was like that in the old days.



Here’s one of the guys who ran the place. “Arnold Nakajima”? He looks like my optometrist. The houses in the background are no longer there. The steps are exactly the same, the same sunshine, the people passed from the scene as if shadows. $35 a month, meals included, although I think the residents were required to help in the kitchen. Why not? This was a new era. They were no longer imprisoned. Uncle John, no longer confined to sanataria—his older siblings Tom and Mary had died from TB, while he had one lung left, the common treatment of the time to collapse one lung in the hopes the other “got stronger.” Seems to have worked for him and for Aunt Kay. It was a new era. They had  new lives ahead.


Here’s Uncle Bob, fresh from the military. Just a kid, eh? He always reminded us of Uncle Bill. I don’t really know, but my guess is that Grandpa spoke in the same flat limited register as several of his sons. I feel that I have that voice, too. Uncle Bob died this month; his memorial will be in Hayward in July. You never wanted to go to any family gathering like that—you don’t appear in wedding pictures, group pics. When Uncle Bill died, and I flew back to Los Angeles for the funeral, we took a boat a little ways from the pier to toss his ashes and a few roses into the ocean off Guadalupe Beach. I asked you if you wanted me to pick you up. You said, “Nope, nope.  No way. What for? To remember what those people did to each other? What they did to me?” (That’s why you never met or knew Uncle Bob. He was a totally different guy from Bill, even if they looked and sounded remarkably similar.)



It’s true that the violence of racism etched into their characters, some of them, like Uncle Bill’s poisonous anger which he took out on us as children, for others a certain timid smallness of personality, the dutiful attentions paid by other Nisei to assiduous assimilation of Anglo culture. But that wasn’t all there was too it, not by a long shot. They built whole lives of loving and generous care, like you could have. 



But they took a shot at making their lives. They came from those margins, from the $25 and one way ticket, one jacket and whatever they could carry with them, and they built new lives. You had your chance at it, like anybody. Your daughter plans to plant a tree on the rec path that overlooks Monterey Bay west of Point Alones, where the Chinese fishing village was burnt out, May 16, 1906. Your daughter wrote a haiku to go on the plaque.




You felt intensely fearful that you wasted your life. Deeply ashamed, you grieved for all lost chances. Women you’d known (who surely have forgotten you and every intimacy and every moment together by now), the family you almost had but now no longer knew you, the life you might have made. The sweetness of these memories shamed you, when you couldn’t stop from thinking about it. That vertigo, teetering between sorrow over what was lost and fear of nothing that lay ahead paralyzed you every day. You screamed at me over the phone, “My problems are not a subject for your poetry!” You didn’t want me to write about you, afraid of that too. Between us, I wrote letters every week to you—and to dad (you were the exact son of the old man).



You rose at 5 AM if you could sleep no longer and went outside in the fleece-lined denim jacket and sat on your porch in the chilly fog, smoking, as dawn rose over the rooftops of the neighborhood. Drinking a first beer.



Uncle John’s shop. We never saw it, never went there. We never saw this car with the business name on it either. Like most kids, we never saw the men trade their days away, except that they brought home their largesse, or their wrath.



—-THURSDAY — MARCH 11th, 9 AM cool, sunny.

Yesterday Rick came by, said he’d get back to me Friday. Omar came over and bought me a beer, said he liked the cat drawing. I made us hot Italian sandwiches on fresh white rolls with mushrooms, onions & garlic. Didn’t get much done, some exercise. 

Woke this morning feeling bad, worried, cold, almost sick to my stomach. 

Yesterday got my food stamps, bought salami, sausage, mushrooms, bread rolls, onions.

Need to be ready to work: Clarity + energy. 

MARCH 16 — TUESDAY —bright warmer sun. 9:40 AM

Walked to St. Mary’s yesterday, saw Darlene. Got really exhausted walking up the hill in the heat with a backpack on and my heavy jacket. The farmer’s market was setting up downtown on Lighthouse. (Library closed.)

I didn’t get the job, Tanya called and said they gave it to a guy with a truck, which makes more sense to me, there was lots of hauling to be done. I thought that might happen.

Sesshu sends postcards.

I got to fill out my work search paper for Toni and find out what’s going on with that. 

Finally I walked yesterday again. Need to do more of that, get in better shape.

Worked with John on a spaghetti the other day, it came out okay. Want to go to the library, maybe in Monterey. 


—————–160.00 today (I think)

(Rick did get back to me on Friday, Omar’s been really busy with work so I haven’t seen him much.) Had a good experience reading part of an ORION issue yesterday.



You and dad. Was I the only one who had ever actually known who you had been before you two were destroyed? I felt like I was the only one who knew the “real you.” From before.



You said you once you had walked to the edge of the Bixby Canyon Bridge, but were too afraid to throw yourself off. I stood with you in the sea wind high on the Bixby bridge, the canyon 200 to 280 feet below us. “All right,” I said. “That means there’s time to do something else.”



You told me about a friend who walked out in front of a truck. “They had to pick him up in pieces.” I guess most people have some story like that.





Friends and neighbors loved you, your kindness, gentleness with their kids. They brought plates of food when you were sick. (You had some idea that you would not get well. “Time is almost up,” you said.) Your friends knew “real” you, as much as I did. Omar, drinking himself to death in Oaxaca after being deported (his wife said, weeping for you). When I came to clean out your room (which they had tidied a bit before I arrived), Debbie, Alba and others climbed the flights of stairs to your place. They stood in your doorway, trying to talk to me about you. They looked into my face; they saw that you were not there, either.





Nobody knows who these friends of John were. “Sadako.” Could she still be alive? He didn’t keep in touch with them. He kept all of these photos from his time at the Fellowship Hostel, from the start of his new life.

John Heygi Agawa, 1920 – 2007.




Tom—named of course for our uncle who died of TB who we never knew—scanned these photographs and threw the originals away; he gave digital files to people in the family.

Fumiko (Karamoto) Agawa, 1924 – 2010

John and Fu met these friends at the Fellowship Hostel (1946?), for a time, forced by circumstance to be neighbors. Then they all dispersed into post-war Southern California. John and Fu married and bought a house on a hilltop in nearby City Terrace.

Like Boyle Heights, it was a mix of Asian Americans, Mexicanos, Jews. The Horis, the Teradas, the Yakushijis, others—some who went to Union Church with John and Fu (in the building that is now the East West Theater Company on Central in Little Tokyo). Uncle Bill bought a house on a hill in City Terrace, too. That was how we ended up in City Terrace.



West toward downtown, from Evergreen, down Folsom Street. Your own solitude shamed you. “Sometimes the loneliness is more than I can bear,” you said.



When I told mom at age 90, it staggered her and knocked her back and she said, “When are we going? What can I do?”

“I’m going, Ma,” I said, “but there’s nothing to be done. There’s nothing to be done anymore.”



Sabro and I drove up several times. We cleaned out a couple different apartments for you and tried to set you up so you could have a life. That last time, we emptied out everything. It took the morning. We took stuff to local, thrift stores, where you might have gotten it in the first place. I left John and “John Burke” your pots and pans and kitchenware. I worried a little about throwing too much away, the cassettes of you Zoose from the 1970s or 80s. (Little Omar was very happy to get your computer. Later, I wondered if there photos and documents on it that we might have wanted.) Anyway, I felt it was like the faces we looked into. You weren’t there.



Like a shadow swept from the stairs. Ash tray, empty can at the top of the stairs. Now you’ll never have to be as old as your aunts and uncles, as old as our grandparents, or as old as  mom and dad. You’ll never be as old as these photographs.



Dates, names, places, streets, cities, California of dreams.



“To a swell guy— From a Pal— Manuel”



You signed off one of your last letters: “Tick… tick… tick…” and another, “I hope you are well.”

I never felt at home in any of those rooms, the long corridors with the yellow light bulbs, the closed doors. See you in the afternoons on the roadside, in a child in the fields, in a cat on the steps.


Somebody said, you should stop sending him money, or he isn’t going to do anything for himself. I had to wonder if it was any help, year after year, if I was helping save you, or helping destroy you. But I knew it wasn’t only for you. This is something we must do for ourselves, must do as much as we can, or more,  for all of us, ourselves.


You were too wrapped up in your own unfolding doom, too trapped in everyday worries and fears to know the story of these people who were part of our lives when we were growing up. You never knew their story. They passed through our lives, and their stories were  perfectly smooth, ordinary, unspoken, and therefore unknown. Perfect like a seed.



Who could know us?






The Smithsonian Asian Pacific American Center hosted “CrossLines: A Culture Lab on Intersectionality” at the Smithsonian’s historic Arts and Industries Building Saturday and Sunday, May 28–29, 10 a.m. to 9 p.m., in celebration of Asian Pacific American Heritage Month. Featuring the works of more than 40 artists, scholars and performers, “CrossLines” exhibited array of art installations, live performances and interactive maker spaces.

Lawrence-Minh Bùi Davis said, “We had a “poetry listening salon” with an iPad station set up with the video as well as several audio poems–by Juan Felipe Herrera, Arlene Biala, Rigoberto Gonzalez, Brandon Som, and Tarfia Faizullah. Response was great; 12,000 people came through the event, and a lot of people sat in the salon and used the station.”

At the de-installation of the exhibit, Lawrence sent this picture of Clement Hanami and Sojin KIm checking out the video by Arturo Romo-Santillano of a poem of mine, “Hell to Eternity: The Movie Version.”

See: http://parrafomagazine.com/issues/06/foster/movieversion.html


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Clement Hanami and Sojin Kim

Your little sister gave me a card, some kind of gift card, I couldn’t see it. Looking at it was like a poke in the eye. She said you wanted to give me something, before you died, to thank me. I wasn’t going to say no. I thanked her. I gave her a hug. She’s much smaller than you! But like you, seems strong in her spirit.

All these magnetic rays and cosmic rays sweep through us. All this dust of dinosaurs (or something of the tiny plankton of their oceans, the calcium of shells that layered over millions of years in limestone), the oxygen, the molecules that immense beasts snorted on some long buried plain—in a droplet of my tears.

All these summers banked inside thousands of California hills. All these magpies, orioles, crows, red-crowned parrots banking, flitting by.

All these shimmers and glimmers of vast sheets of light, vast cycles of time, some of it must have a little light refracted from just that single Saturday.

All these tiny precious milliseconds we weren’t paying attention, didn’t know. All this dust on the lens, and the salt or whatever it is, a tear drop leaves on eyeglasses.

All these crowds of people (some of them so sweet, some with such bitter terribly bitter luck), all these mechanisms and mysteries, mastodons and mix-ups. All these sweeps of light and shadow falling submerged into the dark. All these blooming (in some way, returning to the light) in the morning, all the mornings blooming at kids, all these kids on their way to school, you know?



the city conflates time, conflates 1960s East Bay with 1970s Seattle Lake Union

where we once lived in an apartment building under the freeway

above the industrial flats on the lakeshore where I couldn’t find work

of course it was all long ago

now I drive through it in my Toyota 4-wheel drive, and that was in the last century

my kids (who weren’t born then) are grown up and I don’t know, I drive forward into whatever this new life is about

at night, you know how night conflates one night with some other nights

conflates the twilight dusk with deep midnight, conflates this regular night

with those long nights when I had worked as a bouncer in a strip joint

till 3 or 4 AM and then went out into the Bay Area to find someplace to sleep

these avenues sleek with shiny dark fur of of night (or it’s just my dirty glasses, it’s just the windshield wet with rain), these streets and boulevards shine with black light

of the incipient universe immediately beneath all surfaces

ready to well up like pools of obsidian tar in the L.A. tar pits adjacent to Wilshire Blvd

these avenues and blvds “run through my mind” “drive thru

my thoughts” shimmering with refractions of distant headlights and street lamps

in soft vague blackness of distance ahead of all this

mixing, in flux, churning, alive—all surfaces like the coastline against the infinite sea of night

night universe, I’m driving through this city (which conflates Seattle, Brooklyn, Oakland, L.A., etc.) all these boulevards of course connect, you can get there from here

if—if—I can find the onramp for 5

past several bright liquor stores or gas stations in the otherwise dark blocks and streets (these office buildings, these warehouses and industrial blocks that used to be the long ago landscape I lived above—several flights up—in the apartment bldg which took a flight of stairs up to the big front door, up on the hill—are dark

and empty at night) I decide I might as well stop and ask for directions

it might save time (though I am not in a rush, I am just driving who knows how far)

(whatever the distance might be, just go), I turn in and park

at the fluorescent glare illuminating the little glass booth of an old 1930s-style gas station, where I can see a couple guys inside talking

a couple of sinewy grizzled guys in baseball caps (about my age)

they eye me warily, smirking as I enter and ask where I can get the freeway


“The 5.”

“The 5?” one raises his eyebrow; the other guy makes some remark I don’t catch;

they both laugh—”Yeah, the 5,” I repeat—

they give me some weird, patently useless directions (“Well, yep, go back down to the main boulevard, the main thoroughfare back down about a mile,” etc.) that are more in the nature of some joke between them than information directed at me

so, feeling foolish, I say “thanks,” and shrug, and their laughter follows me out into the night—but somehow I wind around those “south of Market” streets

I find an onramp and take it—not knowing whether I’m heading north or south, at least I am on the freeway!)—heading south, it seems

—speeding down empty lanes of the late night freeway like 101 south through San Francisco—

arriving, if you can call it that, at some Stanford University or immense private library

(wide expanse of grassy lawn, like the Seattle Asian Art Museum on Capitol Hill, with its low wide steps leading to the massive entrance with its tall columns, or the old De Young Museum in Golden Gate Park, which you don’t even remember, do you)

inside maybe 100 folding chairs set up in the immense hall with daylight coming through the vast windows (so it’s a new day, after all, try to remember that)

the usual crowd of white people ignoring me as I enter (by not ignoring me entirely, shooting me looks now and then)—someone’s at the podium, reading

do I know them? I don’t know if I know them, it’s a sparce crowd, I suppose I am there for a reading—I’ll carry out my obligations as they instruct me to

meanwhile, I’ll stroll out under the dim cool vague northern sky

tired of driving all the time or whatever I’ve been doing these days

I have my book of poems (that is a book of poems by a friend that I am carrying around, waiting for a chance to read), a skinny tan poetry book

semi-distant, down the steps and down the walk out by the lawn—perhaps a bit too far to get called back by whoever’s in charge of whatever it is

(whenever I’m out driving through like this, I’m thinking of people I could see—for example, I could have visited my brother—not too far from here—that is, when he was alive)

in the daytime however, the concrete walkways, well-clipped broad swaths of lawn, neatly trimmed hedges don’t have that transcendent immanence

as if you might pass through them into the universe

instead by day the universe is all palpable surface, tangible and concrete, immediate

(even if the Pacific is out there, churning, oxygenated and blue, boiling with living kelp forest off Point Lobos, off Garrapata Beach)

“Hey,” a slim young guy I know as a poet catches my eye

maybe he’ll tell me a specific word

instead we talk about the poetry book I have in my hand, I hand it to him, tell him I like it (as it’s by a friend of mine)—”though I haven’t really sat down to read it yet”—he nods noncommittally, cool like these hipster urban poets—

I get a subtle hapa vibe like David Lau or Brian Kim Stefans or somebody

I’m sure he and they’re hip, they can tell me what’s going on (or somebody will)

and I’ll be on my way (as usual)

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2011, Nightboat Books



The reader who opens the Book of Forgotten Bodies finds nothing. There are no horses galloping through deserted villages in search of the men who used to ride them. There are no children crying for their parents who were thrown out of airplanes and into the sea. There are no soldiers who had their arms sliced off for refusing to obliterate innocent bodies. There are no rich men leaning against paradise trees as the drunk bodies of poor men stumble up to their houses to kill them. There are no bodies of hopeless virgins smashes on city streets by Mercedes-Benzes cruising through the gentle drizzle of a foggy day. There are no bodies abandoned on beaches. There are no corpses floating down rivers. There are no bodies hanging in the military barracks on island XYZ off the coast of nation ABC. There are no bodies that pound rock against rock. No bodies that stand on one leg with hoods over their mouths mumbling words we don’t understand. No bodies covered in mud murmuring to the bodies that lie on top of them. There are no bodies that smell of chemicals and rest in puddles in the rain waiting for flowers to fall on their heads. No blind bodies that are painted by artists who value aesthetics over breath. No bodies that imagine their children’s bodies as ghosts and cadavers and skeletons. No bodies that fall from windows as they try to catch a glimpse of the bodies that have fallen before them. There are no bodies discovered by rabid dogs in houses abandoned before they could even be built. No bodies surrounded by barbed wire as countries die in the distance. No bodies whose skin burns in the strange machines that buzz like tropical nights. No bodies that burn in buildings that have been set on fire by bodies with no reason to live. There are no bodies that fry in the sun, that drown in the shadows, that roast on gas, that ooze algae and moss, that are covered in black rags as the lakes and the mountains die. No bodies that hunt or are hunted, that murder out of charity, that are murdered out of charity. No bodies that shutter the windows and hang themselves in libraries of their favorite books. There are no soulless bodies, no frozen bodies, no bodies gnawed to death by insects. There are no practice bodies, no transient bodies, no empty bodies, no blank bodies that twist between forgotten body and dream.




see also http://jacket2.org/commentary/talking-daniel-borzutzky

and, http://entropymag.org/are-we-latino-memories-of-my-overdevelopment/




See that immigrant freezing beneath the bridge he needs a blanket.


See that torah scroll from the 16th century:  it sprawls on the floor like a deadbeat; the Jews need to wrap it in a schmatte.


The problem, you see, is “exposure.”


Thje poet forgot to shake off his penis and pee dripped on the manuscript that he submitted to the 2007 University of Iowa Poetry prize.


The literary scholar took off his tie and lectured the class on the post-humanoid implications of the virtual cocktail.


He put a pistol on his desk and told the students he was going to kill himself if they didn’t do their homework.


Everything in his “worldview” was exposed.


The data-entry specialist imagined new forms for the senior administrator who was only a temporary carcass, an anti-poem: a budding literary movement that communed with master works by committing suicide while reading them.


The temporary carcass of the bureaucrat, dry as Vietnamese Jerky, called out for “gravy” as it “peppered” the eloquent field of syntax.


Abrupt exposure to ordinary language may result in seriously compromised intelligence, implied the carcass as he lipped the trembling lily which hid the police officer, who said: if you look at me one more time I’m going to zap you with my Taser gun.


I liked the former “Language Poet” for the speech act he attached to the back of my book, which reminded me of Charles Olson on human growth hormones.


The problem, said the critic, remains one of imagination and its insistence on the distinction between thought and action.


“I let him touch my wooden leg,” she said, “and when I unscrewed it I was stuck legless in the hay.”


Which is to say the detachable penis was and has been compatible with family values.


“He was a seriously hardworking boy with a fetish for glass eyes and wooden legs,” she said, “and I really loved him.”


The poetry era reached its nadir as the housing market plummeted, said the professor, as he repeated for the umpteenth time the anecdote about the boy who met an underwater woman as old as the hills.


“Does Poetry live here,” he asked. “Poetry lives here,” she replied, “but he will chop you up and kill you, and then he will cook you and eat you.”


My ideal reader has neither a name, a body, nor an online profile.


Which is not to say that I am not concerned with customer satisfaction.


Dear Reader, Because we value your input, please take a moment of your busy time to answer the following question, which will greatly assist us in our mission to produce cultural artifacts that will further meet your aesthetic and spiritual needs.


Which of the following statements most accurately reflects your feelings about the writing which you have just read:


a. This is a splendid poem, distinguished by the clarity of its thought, the force of its argument, and the eloquence of its expression.


b. This poem is conceptually vapid, artistically shallow, and contributes nothing to the world of letters. It is little more than a collection of bad sentences and poorly formed ideas.


c. I like this poem, but I wouldn’t spend money to read more poems like it.


d. When I read this poem, I feel frustrated and annoyed.


e. When I read this poem, I feel nothing.




It’s a postcard

It’s a mango from a sunnier land

It’s an endless avenue with a few trees

It’s a dense neighborhood

It’s a vague intensity

It’s Americana

It’s the Chicago of Los Angeles

It’s the pop singer of the moment

It’s nothing to you

It’s nutty, sweet

It’s a booth in a corner

It’s a baby’s breath

It’s a stickler for detail

It’s a tawdry purplish bruise you can’t figure

It’s a species of fish

It’s a rudimentary conception

It’s route 66 dust in your eye

It’s a tooth in your hand

It’s my issei farmworker grandparents

It’s their whole generation, come and gone

It’s their whole world, come and gone

It’s their children, gone

It’s generations gone

It’s never coming again

It’s a marker, a note

It’s forgotten

It’s “don’t worry about it” (whatever it was about)

It’s an afternoon in Lincoln Heights

It’s a dream

It’s not raining, it’s not windy

It’s a raven looking at us

It’s a raven flying down to inspect the picnic table at Henninger flats above the San Gabriel Valley

It’s the twins—nobody & somebody

It’s who we said hello to and hugged at Gronk’s opening

It’s who we did and didn’t talk to (we didn’t go to the patio, drink wine and check our phones)

It’s 2 trees that are nothing alike except they are there, they were there

It’s two nearly identical (they appear exactly identical) manuscripts, placed side by side

for verification, but actually, this occurs in a dream (again, working assiduously in a dream)

It’s something we did, or didn’t do

It’s happy birthday to you (so what if it’s not your birthday)



today liz called mom to tell her that bob died this morning;

mom leaned against the hutch and tried not to cry—

(i guess) though she teared up. she asked liz if there was anything

we could do. i listened, because if the person on the other end

said yes, i was the one to start making arrangements.

she had just reiterated to me that bob was in hospice care

because of parkinson’s and dementia and had stopped speaking.

mary couldn’t care for him alone (she had weekly kidney dialysis).

mom’s youngest brother jim is home from the hospital

and someone comes to the house to care for him.

last november when i told mom that you had died, it was like

someone had hit her hard with a fist that was six feet tall

that fell on her from above (that same fist)

or went through her chest like a steel pole.

she leaned back in her chair as if pushed, but she didn’t cry.

she asked, “what are we going do? when are you going up there?”

she asked, “what i can do?”

i said, “mom, there’s nothing to be done. it’s over.”

yesterday i went into the backyard to look at the garden

all the trees have leafed out, the chard and kale and tomatoes

are green and full and there are plums and lemons—

the water troughs she put in have lilies and goldfish—

elizabeth called over the fence, “sesshu! sesshu!

sheldon is in the hospital. they are testing for blood in his urine.

he’s not coming home. sheldon’s not coming back home,

sesshu—i can’t care for him here.”

Elizabeth put the back of her hand to her face, weeping,

“He doesn’t understand. he wants to come home.

they have a dementia ward at the VA. i’m trying to get him in there.

he doesn’t understand. sesshu, it’s so hard.” she was weeping.

“does he recognize you, elizabeth?

the last time i talked to sheldon, he didn’t know who you were.”

“sometimes he knows. sometimes he comes back to himself.

sometimes he knows.” i didn’t know what else to do;

i took elizabeth five lemons from mom’s tree.


June 2022